What makes YOU so special?!

I sometimes wonder if anyone thinks that. Like, "why SHOULD I read your blog?" Or "Why do you think YOUR story is so important to follow?" Well, obviously no one is forcing you to read it, nor do I think my story is all that important. But that's not the point. This is for me. I love to blog and I want to record all the events that lead up to when I make my debut on that stage. Why NOT share it with YOU? If I can inspire, motivate and change someone's life, then WOW. I got way more out of this blog and my journey then I ever thought possible. I'm not looking for praise for the things that I do. Plenty of women out there work, raise a family, go to the gym and do so much more. For me, this is about proving to myself that at age 35, I can do ALL that, plus grow my direct sales business as well as get completely and totally 100% out of my comfort zone, cut ALL my favorite foods out of my life for quite awhile, workout twice as long as I usually do for six days out of the week and whoop this bod into bikini model status so I can strut my inner Britney Spears self across that stage and pose and smile as if my life depended on it!!! And when that is all done have Scott, my kids, my coach Amie, friends and family say "You did AMAZING!" And after THAT if I have just one person say "You INSPIRED me!" then all my hard work will have been worth so much more than I could ever have imagined. Like I mentioned before, the support and words of encouragement I'm already receiving is amazing. I am completely in awe.

I've been asked what a normal day consists of for me. I set my alarm for 4:53am. I know...crazy. This coming from a NON morning person! That time gives me a few minutes to roll around in the bed thinking "Why?? Why am I DOING this to myself?!" Then I get up and make myself my first meal of the day. Again, this is coming from a non breakfast eating person. I try to hit the gym by 5:15-5:20am for my morning cardio. I get my cardio hour in and then head home to get myself and the kids ready for the day. I'm not going to give you a play by play of my day. But in between when I get up at 4:53am until I go to bed (which is too late, I'm still working on going to bed earlier) I will have consumed 5 meals, very strict meals, weighed and measured, a couple snacks in between and two hours of working out. I will have worked, taken the kids to and from school, made dinner for the family, if sports are in session, there is always practices and games to attend, regular errands and chores that need to get done, one hour (minimum) working on my Muscles and Mascara biz, having lunches and clothes ready for the next day, bath and bedtime for the monkeys, a bit of posing practice...and some quality snuggling in peace on the couch with Scott. PHEW!  That is a day in the life of this mascara slingin bikini competing Mama!!!

 

About three weeks into my training and I can tell you this. It takes commitment. It takes determination. It takes will power. It IS like a full time job. You can't half ass your way to that stage. If you want results, you need to do work. I feel up until this point I wasn't pushing myself hard enough. I wasn't committed enough. Meeting with Amie on Thursday, going over my meal plan and getting my first posing session in, helped me see, I can't WAIT to walk that stage. Yes, I still get butterflies and the queasy puke bucket feeling when I think about it, but I also get pumped up. Today while Cruz napped I practiced what I learned...and I was enjoying it. I'm sure I still look like a total goof as it is all still unnatural for me, but I had fun with it. There will be no insecure, modest Jamie on that stage. Nope. Just confident (still a total dork but hopefully that will be well hidden) Mama Jamie on that stage. I was looking at some bikini pro's online today. Primarily ones in their 30's like me... talk about motivation!!

It's not that I think I'm special. It's not that I think I am more important than anyone else.... I'm just me. And it doesn't get more real than that.