Ha! I bet some of you were thinking I fell off the wagon!!

Nope. I sure didn't! I'm still going "strong" haha Well, not always strong as I have still not totally conquered this diet but I am doing pretty darn good! Tonight I bbq-ed Scott and I some bison burgers (just the meat, no bun) and a side of grilled asparagus, all seasoned with good ol' Mrs. Dash (or whatever her name is...) and it dinner was pretty bomb! Scott enjoyed it as well! The kids were stoked on their Breakfast for Dinner, which is one of their favorites. No, I do not make my children eat the same healthy diet as me. I let them eat what they like, mac and cheese, pasta, tacos.... I try to encourage a vegetable with every meal and I put it on everyone's plate, but I don't force. Yes, I get frustrated when they don't eat the vegetable, but I remember as a child literally gagging on veggies and my parents, actually my dad, saying "Forget it! Just don't bother! Your face is awful!" And I never had to eat veggies that I didn't like again. Now I LOVE all veggies! I am hoping that will eventually  happen to my children as well.....

I read an interesting blog today. It was written by a mom, with three daughters and her opinion on moms that train hard and compete in fitness competitions such as body building and bikini. Being that I am in a whole new world right now, I tried not to get too defensive while reading it. Just months ago I never even thought about competing! I follow a ton of fitness sites as well as fitness competitors, totally in awe of them, but again, never considered competing until less than a month ago! But, this blog kind of got to me, more because I have a daughter of my own. In this blog the mom basically bashed women in fitness that they were showing their daughters that they have to be fit and tone to be beautiful and then they should flaunt it on stage, posing in unnatural positions and "looking fake and ridiculous" Ouch! My daughter is beautiful and a free spirit at nine years old. I would never ever take that away from her. Yes, my children know I am on a strict diet and that I am training to compete in a fitness competition. They are supportive and ask me how it's going and feel bad for me when I'm missing out on ice cream. But I will never tell any of my children "you need to eat this and lift weights if you want to look good" because that is completely not true. This is a personal choice that I am making and I am 100% excited about it. People are so judgmental and it frustrates the crap out of me. Just because I am eating my burger atop lettuce instead of a (delicious!) bun, but my friend across from me is mowing down a double double animal style, doesn't gross me out or make me like her any less. This is a lifestyle I am choosing for myself. No one else. To insinuate on your blog that I am basically a bad mom, teaching my daughter that she has to look a certain way and then saying my lifestyle will increase her chances of having an eating disorder is just absurd! Women need to support each other in this world of close minded, judgmental people. THEY are the ones who make their children have issues growing up. Anyway.....rant over!!! 

 

On a happier note, I've just been busy getting Muscles and Mascara (aka my Younique biz) off to a strong start this month. I won a contest that my Orange Elite had posted earlier this month. Thank goodness I have a kick ass team that helped me get the win! $100 gift... I'll take it :) Been hitting the gym every morning and sticking to the diet. I do good all day but then dinner gets a bit rough. For some reason by dinner time I start to crave everything that ISN'T on my menu!! Being at Scott's Grandparent's house was tough yesterday! It's your typical "Grandmas house" with all the goodies. Bear claws on the kitchen table looked to die for (and I don't even LIKE pastries!) and the opened bag of chocolate chips on the counter had my name all over it (okay....confession, a handful of those chocolate chips made it into my belly....) but overall I was good and busted out my awesome ISO lunch box and ate what I was suppose to.

On a nervous note....I meet with my coach this week for the first time since I started training!! She wants to check my progress and start posing practice. Awwwww shit.....it's about to get real!!!!!